About the Author
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Teresa Giudice stars on The Real Housewives of New Jersey
and is the New York Times bestselling author of Turning the
Tables; Skinny Italian; Fabulicious!; Fabulicious: Fast and Fit;
and Fabulicious! On the Grill. A Berkeley College graduate and a
longtime supporter of NephCure Kidney International, she lives in
New Jersey with her family.
K.C. Baker is a staff writer at People magazine, where she has
worked for the past fifteen years. Before that she was a staff
writer at the New York Daily News. Turning the Tables is K.C.’s
third book.
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Turning the Tables
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GROWING UP GORGA
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When I was little, I wanted to be a movie star or an entertainer.
That’s all I could think about. I wanted to be just like Cher.
Every week, my parents and I gathered in the living room of our
five-room apartment to watch The Sonny and Cher Comedy Hour. I
could barely wait until it was on each week. My her, Giacinto
Gorga, sat on our green couch with my mother, Antonia, while I
lay on the floor, right in front of the only TV set we had in the
house at the time. It had a twelve-inch screen and dials to turn
up the volume. We didn’t have remotes back then and we only had
thirteen channels or something.
My brother, Giuseppe, who is two years younger than I am—I call
him Joey and he calls me Tre—would only watch some of the
programs with us, like Three’s Company and Sanford and Son. He
wasn’t really into the ones where glamorous women in sequined
gowns were singing and dancing onstage. He and I were best
friends growing up. We rode bikes together, played board games
and cards, and loved making forts in the living room with our
blankets and pillows. He always had my back, and would kick me
under the dinner table to warn me if I was pushing my dad to the
limit while asking his permission for something. My parents and
brother were my world growing up, and believe me, I could not
have asked God for a better family.
Watching Cher onstage took me to a whole other world. She was so
glamorous in her long, slinky gowns, with her glittery diamond
earrings. I loved her gorgeous makeup, perma-tan, and those
loooong eyelashes. (Which I started wearing All. The. Time. on
the show . . .) I thought her huge fame, her undeniable glamour,
and her devoted fans (I was, of course, one of them, though I
never met her or anyone famous when I was little) were so
amazing. As I lay there on the floor of my family’s humble little
apartment, fantasizing about what it would like to be Cher, I had
no idea that one day I would be famous, too. But like Cher and
every celebrity out there, I would come to see that fame comes
with some of the best things in the world—and some things that
threaten to break you.
I wanted to sing and dance like Cher. I thought I was pretty good
at it. As a kid, I would put on little shows for my parents all
the time in our living room, singing and dancing and pretending I
was onstage. As I got older, I wished that my mom had sent me to
dancing school or gymnastics class, but she didn’t because she
literally couldn’t take me. She didn’t start driving until I was
in third grade, when she surprised all of us by getting her
license! All on her own! We were all so proud of her. But up
until then, when I was seven years old or so, she, Joey and I
would walk everywhere, unless our dad drove us. They didn’t trust
anyone else to drive us anywhere because they were so protective.
The bigger issue was that as an Italian immigrant, my mom simply
didn’t know how to go about finding classes for me and signing me
up, even when she did have her license. My mom has since said
that she would have taken me to dance or gymnastics if she’d
known I wanted to go. But I knew how hard it was for her to get
around, even with a car, so I never asked her about it. I didn’t
want to burden her with that.
Back then, my parents really didn’t see the point of after-school
activities, either. They were like, “You have to be home for
dinner at five-thirty. No out and about.” So I would just take
part in whatever activities were offered at school. I was a baton
twirler in third grade, played softball in elementary school and
in junior high, and played the saxophone in the seventh-grade and
eighth-grade band. I gave up on my dream of becoming famous when
I became a teenager because I thought it was just hopeless, to be
honest. My parents had no Hollywood connections and no idea how
to even begin to get me into showbiz. But still, I always wanted
to become successful and make something of myself one day. I just
didn’t know what that would be.
While I love the life my parents gave me and Joey, they
definitely didn’t have it easy when they came to America. They
had a good life in Italy. There, they were surrounded by family
and friends everywhere they turned, because Sala Consilina, the
town where they grew up, is so tiny. Everyone looked out for
everyone else. They were happy there, for sure, but wanted more
than what their little hamlet offered. They left the only place
they knew because they thought their children would have a better
life in America, where anything was possible. Sala Consilina was
beautiful but limited in rtunity, and I could not be more
grateful for the life and the love they have given me. I had an
amazing childhood, thanks to my parents . . . but in order for me
to have that incredible childhood, my parents sacrificed a lot.
My dad, Giacinto, came here first, in the late sixties. He moved
in with his sister in Paterson, New Jersey, a small city with
lots of tall buildings, row houses, and concrete. It was a far
cry from Sala Consilina, a small, medieval-looking town nestled
in the rolling green and brown hills of the province of Salerno,
about two hours from Nes. When I was little, I could always
point to where it was on a because it’s right at the
beginning of the boot in the southwest of Italy.
My mom, Antonia, grew up as an only child and learned about
heartbreak at an early age. She had a sister named Carmela, who
passed away when she was fifteen days old. Her mother’s (my
grandmother’s) name was Rosa, but everyone called her Teresa,
which is pronounced Tare-ray-za. That’s really how you say my
name in Italian, although everyone here calls me Ter-ee-sah. I am
named after my maternal grandmother. In Italian families, the
tradition is to name your children after your husband’s parents.
But since my mom lost her mother, my dad broke with tradition. He
said to my mom, “If we get married and have a daughter, I want to
name her after your mother.” It was so loving of my dad to say
that. My dad’s mom totally understood, which is another reason
why my parents loved her so much.
Speaking of pronunciations of names, people always ask me why I
say my last name different ways. Sometimes I pronounce it
Joo-dee-chay or Joo-dih-chay, which is the Italian way to say my
husband’s last name, which ironically means “judge” in Italian.
Other times I will say my last name is Joo-dice, which is the
American way to say it. Most people have a hard time pronouncing
it the Italian way, so I am sticking with the American way from
now on. My husband is fine with that. We had used the Italian
pronunciation to make Joe’s dad happy, God rest his soul.
While I can easily pronounce words in Italian, people would
always laugh when I mixed up or mispronounced words on the
show—like when I called a nor’easter a Norwegian, said the word
ingrediences (!), stanima instead of stamina, and semolina
instead of salmonella. I’ve read stories that say I am known for
my “mixed metaphors and malapropisms.” Mala—what? Oh my God. I
have no friggin’ idea how the heck to even begin to pronounce
that one! What can I say? (That’s why I had someone help me write
this book!) People can laugh all they want. I grew up in a house
where my parents spoke Italian all the time, so I spoke two
languages, which is why I mix things up sometimes. (I still speak
Italian with my parents today . . .) I am blowing all of the
haters a big kiss right now. I don’t want to hate. I just want to
love, love, love, love! But look—it is what it is. And now I
definitely know the difference between a nor’easter and a
Norwegian . . . well, sort of.
When my mom was a baby, my grandher, whose name was Pietro,
told my grandmother that he was going to leave Sala Consilina for
Venezuela to work—and never returned. No one knew if he never
returned by choice, or if he was forced to stay. They didn’t even
know if he was alive or dead. My mother doesn’t remember meeting
him because he left when she was so young. To this day, my family
doesn’t know what happened to him. As the years went on, my
grandmother tried to find him. She tried to write to him, but
wasn’t even sure he got the letters. He never answered. That
broke their hearts.
After her her (my grandher) left, my mom and her mother (my
grandmother) went to live with my grandmother’s parents (my
great-grandparents), Rosa and Vincenzo. But my grandmother led a
very lonely life. She never left the house, for fear that people
would shun her and talk about her because she had no husband.
That’s how it was back then. She came from a respectable family
but felt ashamed that her husband had left, even though she
didn’t do anything wrong. So she never went out with friends, to
the many feasts they held in town (it’s the Italian way!), or
even to church. She would just stay home and work the land with
my great-grandher and help my great-grandmother cook, sew,
make sausages, jar vegetables, and take care of my mom, of
course.
Things only got worse for my mom and grandmother as my mom got
older. When my mom was nine, my grandmother got very . She
started to lose a lot of weight and always seemed to have a cold
and a , so her family took her to see a doctor in Nes. By
then it was too late. They told her she was very , possibly
with lung cancer. They sent her home and she died months later.
My mom was an orphan at only ten years old. She was devastated.
She and her mother did everything together and were incredibly
close. She still had her grandparents, who loved her so much, but
said she felt so alone in the world without her mother by her
side. Every girl needs her mother, and my mom felt so lost
without hers. I can’t even imagine what she went through. That’s
what made it so hard for me to be away from my own girls when I
went to prison. They needed their mother, too, even if I was only
gone for eleven and a half months.
But that wasn’t the end of my mother’s pain. While she was still
reeling from my grandmother’s death, my great-grandher died a
month later because he was so heartbroken over losing his
daughter. My mother loved my great-grandher so much because he
was the only her figure she ever had. All of this death and
sorrow was a lot for a little girl to take. It was a very dark
time for my mother. Again, I cannot even hom what she went
through.
But she went on to have a happy life, thank God. My
great-grandmother continued to raise her. She had so much
strength and was so good to my mother. Since it was just the two
of them, my mom had to learn how to do everything around the
house, from cooking and making sausages, to tending the garden
and making clothes, just like my grandmother did. That’s how she
learned to be such an amazing cook and to take care of Joey, my
dad, and me so well. What I admire so much about my mom is that
while her childhood was filled with such trauma and sadness, she
was never bitter or angry over everything that had happened to
her. Despite everything she went through, she is one of the
kindest people I have ever met. She has a heart of gold (and not
one bad in her body). She is sweet and loving—and laughs a
lot. Even today. I love her so much and am so blessed to have her
as my mom.
My dad grew up with his parents, Rosa (yes, another Rosa!) and
Giuseppe (whom my brother is named after), two older brothers,
Michael and Mario, and two older sisters, Antoinetta and Maria.
My dad was the youngest in his family, like Audriana. There was
also a brother named Nicola, which means Nicholas in English, who
died at six.
They lived in a three-story house made of stone, in the oldest
part of Sala Consilina near the main piazza. Underneath the
house, which you got to by climbing up a huge flight of stone
stairs, were stalls and troughs for the goats, sheep, and pigs
they used to keep. They had a huge yard, filled with beautiful
fig and cypress trees and an impressive garden, because almost
everyone grew their own vegetables. Joe and I visited the house
in the show’s second season. That was my favorite episode of all
time. I was so happy to go back to Sala Consilina to see the
relatives that Joe and I have there, since his family is from the
same town. It’s so beautiful and peaceful there. Most of the
people there may not have five-carat diamonds, Chanel bags,
McMansions, Ferraris, or yachts, but they are happy. Very happy.
Because family is really all you need in this life.
My dad met my mom when he was twenty and she was just thirteen,
when she was on her way to a feast to celebrate the Blessed
Virgin. My mother didn’t give him a second thought, but my her
couldn’t get her out of his mind. He found out where she lived
and began visiting her at her grandmother’s house every week, as
long as someone else was there, of course. (Italians were very
strict back then and still were when I was growing up!) My dad
wanted to propose right away, but his her told him he was too
young and needed to have a good job and earn some money before he
could get married and start a family. But her family wanted them
to either get married or break up, because they didn’t like the
idea of a boy coming around if he wasn’t planning to stay
forever. So they broke up, but he never forgot about her. (This
is my favorite part! It’s so romantic!) Five years later, when he
was working in America, he wrote to her, telling her that he
still wanted to be with her and asked if she wanted to be with
him. She replied, “If you are serious, then come back to Italy so
we can discuss it.” He came right back to Italy and married her
eighty-seven days later, on December 27, 1969.
I love looking at their wedding album, which reminds me of scenes
from The Godher. After my parents exchanged vows in the
church, they walked to the reception hall, with dozens of their
friends and family following them in the streets—just like in the
movie. They have been married for forty-six years now and are
still so in love. They still flirt and make each other laugh
every day. They both have a great sense of humor—which is where I
get it from!
After my parents got married, they decided to come to America in
1971, with just two suitcases. My mom was pregnant with me when
they moved to Paterson (but she didn’t know it). Before my mom
got here, she said she thought America was paradise. She had seen
pictures and fell in love. She said she wanted to explore the
world, since she had never set foot outside Sala Consilina in her
life. But my dad kept saying to her, “I don’t know if you’ll
really like it . . .”
He was right. Living in a new country was very hard for both of
them. Neither spoke English. My mom told me she would cry herself
to at night, wondering why they had left Italy. She would
say, “I don’t have nobody here . . . I don’t understand what
people are saying. This is terrible . . .” She didn’t even know
how the money worked, but she said nice people at stores would
help her count out her change—and that no one ever stole from
her. Yes, it was hard, but they had wanted to come to America—the
land of rtunity.
My dad needed a job and began working as a dishwasher at an
Italian restaurant, but he learned how to repair shoes at the
same time. My her worked day and night and saved everything he
could so that he could buy a shoe repair business in Butler, New
Jersey. Joey and I would go to work with him on Saturdays when we
were little. Most of the time, we just stayed in the back room
watching cartoons or playing. Sometimes, though, we would help
him sweep or clean or find shoes that customers came to pick up.
I loved helping him and always felt so grown up working there.
Sometimes, though, he was too much of a perfectionist. Ten or
eleven years ago, a thirty-something-year-old woman brought in a
pair of hot Christian Louboutins to repair at the store he bought
in Ramsey, New Jersey, after his first store burned down. Now, we
all know that Louboutins are known for their signature red soles.
They’re a total status symbol. But my dad thought the soles
looked badly scuffed, so he spray painted the bottoms of these
very expensive shoes super-black and then applied a special
polish to make them shine. He thought they looked great—just like
new. When the woman came to get them, she was like, “These aren’t
my shoes! My shoes had red soles!” I had to set him straight and
tell him, “You cannot spray paint the bottoms of Louboutins!” He
didn’t want her to be upset, so he spray painted the bottoms red
again. She was happy when she saw the red soles again, but at
first? Not so much. Madonna mia!
After all the years my dad worked at the repair shop, which he
really loved, he had to sell his store in Ramsey eight years ago
because of his . He had to have two open-heart valve
replacements. On top of that, he just couldn’t bear to breathe in
the fumes from the s he used in the store. He would get
pneumonia all the time. We were sad that he had to sell it,
because we have so many happy memories there. The store is still
there and I get a little teary-eyed whenever I see it. But, as we
all know, with life comes change . . .
When I was growing up in my family, there was a lot of love. We
lived a very simple but very happy life. I was raised in a strict
Italian Catholic household that had strong values. Loyalty is
everything to me. Family is everything to me. You never go
against your family in my eyes. That’s what I was taught.
My dad was home with us every night after work. We went to church
every Sunday and sat in the same pew at Mass every week. On the
weekends, we would sometimes go to my parents’ friends’ houses or
they would come to ours. My dad would play cards with the men. My
mom would sit and talk with the women, drinking coffee and having
desserts while my brother and I hung out with all the kids.
Even though our apartment was modest, it was so warm and
welcoming. I have such good memories from living there. When you
walked in the door, the kitchen was right there. That’s where we
spent most of our time. To the right of the kitchen were three
bedrooms right next to each other—my parents’ bedroom and then
mine and Joey’s. Then there was a bathroom and the living room.
That was it.
Even though we had no grass in our yard, just asphalt, we lived
across the street from the Paterson Falls, which are spectacular.
I loved being able to hear the rush of water when we had our
windows open. We would always see people going there to take
pictures because it’s such a famous landmark in our area. They
held a big carnival there every year. Joey and I loved going to
that carnival. I remember how I couldn’t wait to look out the
window each year to watch this man walk across the falls on a
metal wire. I loved seeing him walk the tightrope because you
don’t really see things like that a lot anymore. Especially out
your window. I was always so worried that he was going to fall!
(He never did, thank God . . .)
One thing I loved about living in that apartment house was a
massive mulberry tree across the street. Its branches hung down
low, so we would go and pick mulberries off the tree when they
were ripe and eat them. When Joe and I were little and he would
come over to the house with his mom, we would run across the
street and pick as many as we could and sit on one of the big
rocks under the tree and eat them. Our hands and faces were dark
purple from the berries, but we didn’t care. I loved the bond
that Joe and I shared, even back then. We always felt so
comfortable with each other. As kids we joked about how we wanted
to marry each other one day, but back then I had no idea that I
was sitting under that beautiful tree with my future husband!
My dad and I have always been close. He was—and still is—one of
the most powerful forces in my life. Growing up, he was like a
god to me. He was incredibly strong—emotionally and mentally, but
also physically. What always struck me were his strong hands.
They were enormous. He wore something like a size 16 ring.
When I was little though, boy, was I terrified of my dad. My
her was king. The boss. We always said, “What he says, goes!”
He never hit me. He didn’t have to. If he was mad, he just
you this look. Whenever he did that, I would be shaking in my
shoes. I actually peed my pants when I was in first grade when he
was yelling about something I did and gave me that chilling look.
Grown men were wary of it! I got so ed that I couldn’t help
but wet my pants—or run.
As I got older, though, I started to push the limits with him. I
wasn’t fresh. I just wanted to have my say, like all teenagers
do. Sometimes when he told me to do something, I would say,
“But . . .” He did not like that. I think he thought I was being
disrespectful, but I was just trying to get my point of view
across—or get something I really wanted. I remember asking my dad
if I could have a over at my friend’s house. He said no.
“But her parents will be there,” I said. “Why can’t I?” The
answer was always no. He couldn’t believe that I would dare to
continue to ask him about it. Finally, he said, “You home.
I don’t want to talk about it again.” That was that. No
overs.
I remember my mom or my brother shooting me looks to keep quiet
when I said, “But . . .” (I laugh now when I think of all the
crazy things my little spitfire, Milania, comes up with! Like
when she said to Joe, “Gimme pizza, you old troll!” I cannot
imagine what kind of look I would have gotten if I had said that
to my dad!)
When my dad got really mad at me, he would slam his hands on the
table, just like my brother did at his son’s christening on the
first episode of Season 3, after he called me “garbage,” which
started a huge brawl. (I will never forget that horrible
day . . . Oh, Madonna mia . . .)
Unlike me, my brother would never talk back to my her. He
would always stay quiet. My mom was a saint. She would never talk
back, either. Once in a while she would give him an eye roll, but
that was it. As I got older, I always remember my mom saying to
me, “If you were married to your her, you would have been
divorced already . . .”
My mom and dad were always good at balancing each other out. My
mom knew to keep quiet when my dad was fired up and how to speak
to him when he calmed down. This really worked for them because
they have been happily married for so long. I never heard my
mother raise her voice to my dad, who treated my mom like a
queen. He would always say to her, “This is how a man treats a
woman . . .” I think one reason my brother treats his wife,
Melissa, so well is because he learned that from my dad.
Even though my dad could be strict and y when he me the
look, the funny thing is that today I see that my dad is really
just a big teddy bear. My mom is now the boss, although I’m not
sure he would admit that. My dad cooks and cleans a lot more now
because it’s hard for my mom with her rheumatoid . I
think one of the reasons Joe and I have such a strong marriage is
because I learned so much from my parents’ relationship. He also
learned from his parents, Frank and Filomena Giudice, who were
happily married for decades, like mine. Joe and I rarely raise
our voices to each other and work out our differences in a loving
way. I can only hope that Joe and I are able to pass down what we
learned from our parents to our daughters. I want them to have
the kind of happy marriages we have all had in my family.
I’m grateful that my parents were so strict with me. I never did
drugs growing up. I was too terrified of my dad. He would tell
me, “If you do drugs and the drugs don’t kill you, I will.” I
always thought of him before doing anything I knew I shouldn’t
do. Plus, I never wanted to do anything to disappoint my parents
in any way. They were so supportive of us, and had given up so
much for our happiness, that I never wanted to do anything that
would make them think that I wasn’t grateful. I was always afraid
of what would happen if I ended up in the hospital from taking
any drugs. My parents would have had to come and get me, and they
would have been devastated. And they would definitely have killed
me. Or at least made my life beyond miserable.
My mom is the best mom in the world. So caring and loving. She
was always so attentive to my brother and me. We were her life.
Her whole world. Growing up, my mom was always home with us. That
is how my dad wanted it. We never had a babysitter. My mom would
always invite my friends and my brother’s friends to our house,
so she could keep an eye on all of us and so that she knew where
Joey and I were at all times. When I was little, my friends would
come over and we would play Barbies for hours.
My dad didn’t want my mom to work, although she would come to the
shoe repair place every now and then and help him out. She would
do any repairs that needed the sewing machine, so she would sew
straps on handbags and sandals—that kind of thing.
Dinnertime at my house was sacred. It was family time. It’s the
same in my house now. My mom had dinner on the table at 5:30 p.m.
on the dot every night. We all loved that she made us delicious,
y home-cooked meals. After we finished dinner, we would
have to stay seated at the table for dessert, which was always
fruit. We couldn’t get up from the table until everyone was done
eating. My dad was very big on that. I still carry on that same
tradition in my house, too.
My mom was always in the kitchen cooking and baking, like other
Italian mamas everywhere. The house always smelled so good.
Everything she and my dad made, since he liked to cook, too, was
just so delicious. It was all about food in my house. We didn’t
grow up in a mansion, but our house was the best of the best when
it came to food.
Every Sunday, I remember my mom making meatballs and braciole
(pronounced brajole), thin slices of meat rolled with garlic and
parsley and held together with a toothpick. So delicious . . .
She would also make her own sauce and stir in homemade sausage,
which made it taste even better. I still do that today with my
sauce.
I would watch my mom all the time, asking questions about how she
prepared things. I would help her cook, too. I think I started
helping her when I was five. I would fry eggs in olive oil (like
Milania would do with me, later on) and make espresso every night
for my dad after dinner. As I got older, especially after I got
married, I learned so much from her, which is why I am so good in
the kitchen today—and was able to write three New York Times
best-selling cookbooks!
Everything my mom made was mouthwateringly delicious and done to
perfection. During the week she would make us egg
parmigiana, eole and beans (which I love to make for my girls
now), linguine in white clam sauce or red sauce with crabs,
stuffed egg, and chicken parmigiana. I love my mom’s
lasagna, stuffed mushrooms, and homemade pasta. We couldn’t get
enough of her food. And the smell of her freshly baked bread in
the house? Heavenly . . .
My her would always make dinner on Wednesday, his day off. He
would roast pork chops or chicken in the oven with onions,
potatoes, and vegetables. Delizioso!
I loved helping my mom make desserts, too, like nocché, which is
Italian for bow tie cookies. We would make them for parties and
holidays. They taste so good and look so beautiful on the table,
but are a lot of work.
My mom went all out on Christmas Eve, which was huge for us. We
always hung out with our neighbors, who were Sicilians. My mom
would invite something like thirty-five people over every year.
The kids all played and ran around while the adults laughed,
drank homemade wine, and ate all the amazing food my mom spent
hours making. (Italian families love to have everyone over all
the time, especially for holidays!)
One longtime Italian, Roman Catholic tradition our family
followed was the Feast of the Seven Fishes on Christmas Eve to
celebrate Jesus’s birth. Just like during Lent, when Catholics
aren’t allowed to eat meat, we are supposed to fast until Jesus
is born and can only eat fish while observing the Cena della
Vigilia—the Christmas Eve vigil dinner. So it was all about the
fish that night.
We would have linguine in red sauce with seafood (one of my
favorite pasta dishes), seafood salad with octopus, shrimp, and
scungilli, another favorite of mine. We would eat a lot of
baccala—salted cod, which is a southern Italian tradition. We
would mangia on baccala salad, baccala in a red sauce, or fried
baccala, clams casino, mussels in a hot, spicy red sauce baked in
the oven, as well as fried shrimp and fried calamari. For
dessert, I would help my mom make struffoli—fried balls of dough
with honey and rainbow sprinkles, which look so beautiful when
you serve them. I always loved eating all the fish on Christmas
Eve, which is another tradition I uphold at my house now.
At Easter, my mom would make pizza chiena or piena, a traditional
Napolitano recipe. Piena means “full”—so it’s a thick pie with a
crust on top stuffed with ricotta, prosciutto, eggs, and cheese.
Absolutely amazing.
One of my favorite childhood memories was going down the Jersey
shore with my parents and my brother. Sometimes we would go with
Joe’s family. We would go for the day every Wednesday and Sunday,
since those were my dad’s days off. My mom would pack the most
delicious sandwiches: prosciutto, fresh mozzarella and egg
or chicken cutlet. Instead of sprinkling salt and pepper on the
sandwiches, she would put homemade jarred egg in olive oil
or roasted red peppers on the sandwiches. So good! My mom would
always pack a big container of iced tea to drink and fresh fruit,
like juicy peaches or refreshing watermelon slices. For whatever
reason, everything always tasted so good on the beach—and still
does.
We would buy badges for the day at beaches like Sandy Hook or
Long Branch, and I would spend the day swimming in the ocean,
body surfing (hoping I wouldn’t lose the top to my bathing suit
when I was tossed around in the huge waves!), picking seashells
off the beach, playing with sand crabs we dug up, and building
sand castles with my dad and my brother. My dad loved to dig a
deep hole in the sand, put me or my brother in it, and cover us
up to our necks, which would make us laugh! (My mother was always
like, “Be careful with them, Giagee!”)
My favorite bathing suit back then was a crocheted bikini in
rainbow colors. I wish I had a photo of me in that suit, but I
don’t. My mom didn’t take a lot of photos of me and Joey, but I
wish she had. I want to be able to see what I looked like every
year of my life and share those pictures with my children. That’s
why I’m now a fanatic when it comes to pictures. I am always
taking photos of my daughters doing anything and everything, so
they can remember where they come from. What I have learned in
this life is that honoring our beginnings—whether they are humble
or extravagant—is so important, and I want my girls to be able to
look at those photos with my future grandkids!
Growing up with strict Italian, Catholic parents, all I heard my
parents say was that they wanted to raise me to be a good girl.
They wanted me to be a good wife and mother one day. That’s what
I wanted to be too. But sometimes it was hard, because the
standards they had for my brother, even though he was younger
than me, were very different from the standards they held me to
because he was a boy, which is typical in Italian families. If my
her was king of the house, my brother was the prince. Every
night after dinner, I was the one who was expected to help clean
up and do the dishes. He would just eat and then take off. I
always cleaned my brother’s room for him. I would put away my
laundry and then his laundry. Every Saturday I would help my mom
clean the house. I would dust, mop the floors, clean the
bathroom, and vacuum the whole house. He didn’t have to do any of
this. I never questioned it or got angry about it. This was just
the way it was. My brother did have his own responsibilities,
too. He would help my dad out in the yard and would always take
out the garbage.
While I was a daddy’s girl, and still am, my brother was
definitely the apple of my mother’s eye. My mother was crazy
about my brother. She loved him so much. She couldn’t pronounce
Joey right so she would call him Jovey mio—“my Jovey.” We both
got our love for our own families—and our strength—from our
parents, especially my dad. He taught me to stand up for myself
and face my challenges head-on, just like he did. I had no idea
just how big those challenges would be for me later on in life.
When I was going into fourth grade, we moved from our apartment
to a one-family house in a nice neighborhood. I lived in that
house with my parents until I was twenty-seven, when I got
married. I have a picture of me standing in front of that house
on my wedding day. We all spent lots of time in our new yard. My
dad would cut the grass, while my mom would be outside every
night watering the flowers she loved to . My parents had a
garden in the backyard, where they grew tomatoes, peppers,
cucumbers, and egg, just like their families did in Italy.
They also installed a full kitchen in the basement, which is
totally an Italian thing. They did that because they wanted to
keep the kitchen upstairs spotless. The kitchen downstairs was
the workhorse kitchen, where all the heavy lifting would take
place when it came to cooking—especially for the holidays. Next
to the kitchen downstairs, there was a big room with a living
room and an area for the table where we ate dinner every night
together.
If you thought my parents were strict when I was little, that was
nothing compared to when I was a teenager. We would be sitting at
the dinner table and my her would pick up a and say to
me, “You need to walk a straight line on the . If you walk
crooked on it, you will cut yourself. But if you walk straight,
you will be good.” He was basically telling me that I always
needed to avoid sex and drugs, do right in life, and try not to
make any stupid mistakes. He told me that all the time—right up
until the day I got married.
For as much of a good girl as I prided myself in being, I did
make some mistakes. In seventh grade, I cut school one day with
my best friend, Maria. We went to her house because her mom
worked and no one was home to catch us. I had my period and felt
lousy, and just didn’t feel like dragging through the school day.
In my house, I had to be dying to stay home from school.
We hung out at Maria’s house all day, talking, putting on makeup,
and watching TV. I kept a close eye on the clock. I had to get
back to school before the last bell rang because my mother picked
me up every day. I have to admit, I loved feeling so free!
When I got back to school, I tried to fly under the radar, but
one of my teachers saw me and figured out that I had skipped
school. The next day I was called into the principal’s office. I
was shaking like a leaf as I walked down the hall. I had never,
ever been in trouble like this before in my whole life. I almost
died when the principal told me I was suspended from school for
two days, because I knew what my parents would say. That’s what
ed me the most.
I remember almost wanting to throw up when I told my mom what had
happened, because my stomach was in knots. Just as I predicted,
she didn’t take it well. At all. After I managed to get the words
out, she yelled at me and told me I had to go to school unless I
was really . She said I needed to be a good example for my
brother. I felt so bad for letting her down. I cried and went to
my room and stayed there until dinner. Despite how upset she was
with me, she didn’t tell my her about it. I was beyond
relieved. I was a teenager pushing the limits, but I felt so
guilty about disappointing my mom that I never missed school
again.
I am proud of the fact that I was a good girl growing up. I know
I have made some missteps along the way. I’ve also had to deal
with the many curveballs life has thrown me. Despite all of that,
I have always put my family, my love for them, and my values
first. I can only hope that my daughters will walk in the same
footsteps that I have when it comes to these kinds of things. My
strict upbringing also kept me out of a lot of trouble growing
up, which is why I am so strict with my own daughters. I am
raising them to be good girls, too.
As a teenager, I always wondered what it would be like to date
Joe. After all, our families were so close, and even back then, I
knew him like the back of my hand. Somehow, though, we knew we
had to date others before finding the great love in each other.
In high school, I found myself hanging out with this guy who was
the center of a lot of attention. There was another girl who
liked him at the same time, and was not happy he liked me so
much. She would give me nasty looks—the side eye and the up and
down—and would constantly flirt with him. One day, we passed each
other in the stairwell between classes and she bumped into me on
purpose, making me drop my books. When I stood up, I told her to
cut the shit. She started screaming and pushed me, so I pushed
her back. I was protecting myself. I had never been in a scuffle
like this before, but this girl started it and I reacted to what
she did. What did she think I was going to do? Just stand there?
All these people came to watch because they heard we were
fighting. When the school officials came, my heart sank. I knew I
was going to get in trouble, and I did. Both of us got suspended.
I was most terrified of my parents’ reaction. While they weren’t
happy that I got suspended, my her told me he knew that I
wouldn’t have gotten into it with that girl unless I was
defending myself, so he wasn’t mad.
I was upset at the suspension but was proud of myself for
standing my ground with her. I remember thinking back to this
incident when I flipped that table on the first season of Real
Housewives, when Danielle Staub pushed me to the limit. I am a
pretty laid-back person until you push my buttons and keep going.
That’s when I usually lose it.
Things quieted down for a while after that with that girl in high
school, but when another girl set her s on that same guy, we
had to go through the whole thing all over again. Just like the
first girl, this new one was also jealous of our relationship. So
one day, she and her friends waited for me and tried to jump me.
School had just ended for the day, and as I headed outside to the
bus, I turned a corner and saw that girl and her friends waiting
for me. No one else was around, so I was all alone. Just them and
me. After they surrounded me, the girl started hurling a lot of
ugly words at me, calling me a puta and telling me to stay away
from him. I basically said that if he wanted to be with her, he
would. Even though we were just yelling at each other at this
point, I knew what was going to happen next: they were going to
pull my hair, scratch me, push me—and punch me. They were trying
to e me because there were so many of them and only one of
me. I wasn’t afraid of them. I thought what they were doing was
ridiculous. I held my own and stood strong. I didn’t back down. I
was one tough Italian cookie and they knew it.
Then, out of nowhere, a friend of mine happened to be passing by
and saw that I was in trouble. She pulled out a and they
scattered like mice. I was shocked. I didn’t even know she
carried a on her. Thank goodness she did.
Since I went to school with some tough kids, I learned to be
tough and stand up for myself. You had to be strong there. If you
showed anyone you were weak, you were done. The good thing about
going to school there, though, was that I had friends from all
walks of life—black, white, Latina—which taught me to be
open-minded and nonjudgmental when it comes to other races and
cultures. It’s one of the things that helped me in prison, where
I also met all kinds of people—and, just like in high school, had
friends from all kinds of backgrounds.
In my heart, I think God sent my badass, -carrying friend my
way that day for a reason. Otherwise, I would have had to defend
myself against all of them. I know I could have handled myself
and held my own, but still, there were a lot of girls there.
Thank God nothing at all happened to me and that my friend was
there to back me up. I didn’t want another suspension, or for my
parents to get upset again.
One thing I learned from that horrible day was that yes, those
girls wanted to e me, but that will never work with me. Doing
something like that will just make me come back even stronger. I
didn’t tell my mom that I was almost attacked because I knew she
would be worried about me. But I’ve never been afraid to stand up
to anyone. I don’t like fighting, but if I need to stand up for
myself, I will. I may have a soft and kind heart, but that
doesn’t mean I don’t have a back. Standing strong is just one
trait many Italians share, and I’m proud to be able to do that
for my family and myself.
People out in the world have said they think I am “pampered and
spoiled.” That’s not true at all. I have always been a hard
worker. My parents instilled a strong work ethic in Joey and me
from a young age. They always told us to work as hard as we could
for our money—and to save, save, save, like they did. I have no
problem working hard. I actually like to work. All my employers
would always say that I hustled. Later on, at book signings for
the four cookbooks I wrote, I would never take a break. I
wouldn’t stop until everyone waiting in line got an autograph and
a picture. I was at one event at a Barnes & Noble until two in
the morning, because there were so many people there waiting to
meet me! I didn’t mind. I wanted to make sure everyone left
happy.
I started working at a young age. When I was ten or so, I got my
own paper route after begging my her to let me do it. He
finally gave in, thinking I would do it for a few weeks and get
it out of my system. But I loved it. Unlike other kids, who
delivered the newspapers on their bikes, my her would drive me
from house to house because he wanted to make sure I was safe. I
prided myself as the papergirl who put the newspaper in the
mailbox because that was the right thing to do. I would think to
myself, “If I throw the newspaper on the lawn or in the driveway
and it rains, how will my customers read it?” I got tipped well
for my extra efforts. People would tell me they never had someone
put the paper in the mailbox before. I just wanted to do the best
job possible, something I have tried to do my whole life.
When I was fourteen, my dad helped me get a job at Shoe Town, a
shoe store in Ramsey, New Jersey. Since I only worked on
Saturdays, I would drive in to work with my dad. He would drop me
off at Shoe Town at 8 a.m. and pick me up at 5:15 p.m., when he
was done with work. When I got my driver’s license, I worked
more, especially during vacations and when I was off from school.
Eventually, I started working at the Shoe Town in the Preakness
Shopping Center in Wayne, New Jersey. That Shoe Town closed
awhile ago and is now a Trader Joe’s. I smile whenever I drive
past there because I loved working there and making my own money.
But most of all, I was happy that my parents were so proud of me
for being so responsible.
In high school, I started thinking about a future career, so I
took the business program there and learned how to type on a
typewriter—because we didn’t have computers back then—and write
shorthand. That kind of thing. I really loved it. After I
graduated in 1990, I went to Berkeley College for fashion
merchandising and management. I learned so much and graduated two
years later with an associate’s degree. In the fall we went on a
fashion trip with the school to Paris and London . . . a dream
trip! I fell in love with both of those cities—especially Paris.
I had a hard time understanding what they were saying to me, even
though I speak Italian. I would love to take my girls there one
day.
All in all, I had a happy childhood. My parents taught me to love
and respect them and my family, to love God, to always try to do
the right thing, and to be a good wife and mother—all things I am
passing down to my own daughters today.
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